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How I Lost It All

by The New Birds of America

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1.
When we started out, love, It was a very dark time, And you went with me all the way, In those mean streets, Without a dime. We were young— We would have whatever we desired. I remember—how tight you held my hand As I stared up at those white towers The morning set on fire. Refrain They never told me that climbing the heights Was the way to the hardest fall. I left you behind me, I thought you would find me, You would always be there at my call. And that’s the story Of all my glory— The tale of HOW I LOST IT ALL And now I have it— The eighty-third floor. I look down on the city like a toy. The clouds rush by my window And people Blow like scraps in the storm. And are you down there, too? Which one is you— Around which corner, into which door Do you vanish with all my joy? Refrain
2.
I was travelling, I stopped for the night. They put me under the eaves. The rain kept waking me, the rain and the doors in the hallway one floor down opening and closing and sometimes someone falling against a wall, a man collapsing a woman staggering from a blow. The first time I woke up the wind had died, the rain brushed the roof more quietly than silence. I saw no harm anywhere anymore in the world. No harm could come to me. The body might be lost, the peace never. The second time I woke up the building shook, the wind hammered and I realized all was ruined and I must suffer with the rest and soon be dead. No matter how I cried out nothing would stop me going. I was travelling, I stopped for the night. They put me under the eaves the rain kept waking me, the rain.
3.
A postcard came today from blue Havana Already it’s set the Mounties dreaming Of silver planes that went there in the old days. My friend is glad to think these days are better. Committed to the left, his songs do service Because I write, he thinks he understands me. If I were there, he’d ask me for a ballad To all the brave ones prepared to die. At fires in the hill, they’ll clean their rifles. They’ll praise the lost ones. I am a simple measure If only you were here, he writes, you would help them A poet can cheat death of its great prize. But the boy I would have been in Nicaragua Or Panama, Beirut or Salvador Could not be found around the rebel campfires Or hiding with the death squads in the barracks. He died alone last night along a quiet road Victim of one side or the other. He stayed up late to praise the moon at rising He hated all the killers equally. At fires in the hill, they’ll clean their rifles. They’ll praise the lost ones. I am a simple measure. And I will not be with them in their singing. My song is for the one lost by the way.
4.
He was writing by the hour in all-night Bloor café. He had all the things a poet needs at hand about him. The neon turned cigars and cups and scattered papers blue. He heard a sign, a sign that said, Café, Café, Café… I love to see him writing in an all-night Bloor café. He writes directions on how to leave your youth behind. And he knows it’s just a cut-out of live of life He’s living, and he says, no more illusions… And only death can keep him from an all-night Bloor café. And death is all that’s waiting if he knocks the cut-outs down. And I almost tap the glass to catch his eye Cause we’ll lose him if he just goes on an on this way… Still I love to him writing in an all-night Bloor café. He turns with each new dreaming gracefully, so gracefully. If death is rigor and age is growing hard, As long as he keeps striving, this one is saved…

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This is an album of songs written by Theresa Moritz and Blaise Moritz inspired by poems by A. F. Moritz. The songs were originally written in the late 1980s and early 1990s, while the recordings date from 2018. Inspired in turn by these songs and others written by Theresa Moritz and Blaise Moritz, A. F. Moritz wrote some original lyrics, several of which were set to music by Blaise Moritz and one of which ("How I Lost It All") is included here. This EP was first released on the occasion of A. F. Moritz's 75th unbirthday.

Each track contains a reference to the book in which the relevant poem was originally collected. The poems had been published earlier in other forms such as in journals and chapbooks. Should you enjoy these songs, you are encouraged to check out the original poems. The poems were selected for their themes and images, not primarily for how "readymade" they were for setting to music. You will find the poems completely different than the lyrics included with each track as the lyrics are true original compositions adapted from the poems such that there are clear references to the text in terms of title, theme and specific phrases while the lyrics also create entirely new structures and focal points to present the poems as songs.

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released April 15, 2022

Recorded in Toronto, November 23, 2018
by Jon Mychal at The Sonic Spa

Cover art by Blaise Moritz

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